Happy Birthday!

At 12:02 p.m., 15 years ago, Zeke was born.

I cannot imagine my life without her, without our headbutts and arguments, without our heartfelt late-night conversations, without our restaurant trips with her friends where I get a glimpse into what being a teenager these days is. I can’t imagine a life not surrounded by her and her friends, who fill this house on the weekends, and sometimes during the week. I can’t imagine not hearing the sound of her voice as she sings in the shower, or not seeing her dancing in her room to the  tunes on her iPod.

She and I live together with our dogs in a little two-bedroom condo. I drive her all over the valley to pick up and drop off friends, and sometimes I feel like an ATM machine as I hand out $20 here and $20 there so she can take a friend to a movie or walk to the grocery store and buy “movie night” snacks. But I’d rather always be on the verge of running out of money and have her in my life than have a fat savings account without her. When I hear her talk to her friends, and counsel them on their life problems, I am proud. She is thoughtful, wise and strong-willed. She doesn’t bow to peer pressure. And she makes me laugh.

Fifteen years ago today, my little miracle was born. I’d had three previous pregnancies (and two after her birth),  and was not supposed to be pregnant at that time because I was undergoing medical treatment for a scarred uterus and ovaries. “You can abort it,” the doctor said, “and start over. Or you can keep it and risk another miscarriage.” Or keep it and be violently sick for eight months (don’t worry, severe morning sickness is a sign of a “good” pregnancy, according to my OB-GYN), and then give birth early, induced because of toxemia, and hold in your arms, at last, the tiny, perfect product of years of wishing and yearning.

Happy Birthday, Zeke! I love you.

7 responses to “Happy Birthday!

  1. Oh, happy birthday to Zeke! (I’m having a sense of deja vu. I could swear it was just a month ago I made the same comment. Life is just zipping by, isn’t it?!)

  2. 🙂

    Happy Birthday to Zeke!

  3. Yes Happy Birthday to Zeke!
    I can’t do those happy faces, but many, many happy faces too.

  4. Indeed, a miracle baby. Happy wishes for her. Isn’t it amazing to raise a child?
    Stella

  5. Blessings to child and mother!

  6. I’m happy for you both.

  7. Happy 15th Birthday, Zeke! Happy 15th Birthday-Of-Being-A-Mother, tarakuanyin!

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